it might be coming. not sure. it keeps pretending. but it's out right now!
Just a short post today, I think. SO much to do. Work today was fantastic, as always. I switched buildings the beginning of this week, so I'm in 10M with Charl now. Nate comes to visit every now and then though. I don't think he handles April very well. Anyways. Nate was standing by my custodial closet door while I was talking to one of my Elders who was done way early, right? I was trying to come up with a job for him to do, because it always seems that we run out of jobs for them, especially on Wednesdays when we have about 10 elders. The Elder kept going on and on about how it was totally okay if I couldn't find a job, which I don't think I could. I ended up telling him to "have a sit". Nate whirls around and goes, "Did you just say, have a sit?" It turns out, I'm picking up Australian! They ALWAYS talk like that there. And because Nate went to Australia and speaks it all the time, and Tashina and Charl are New Zealander/ Hawaiian, I'm going to have the most awesome polynesian accent speaking capabilities at the end of this job. I LOVE It.
Also on the mind today: basketball. We talked about sports today at work, and I can't get it off my mind. First, because I am SO stoked for the game today! More for the game on Saturday (SDSU!!!!!!) but especially for today because I can go! I love going to the games. Second, because I wish I could play half decently. I have absolutely NO skills at it. It's somewhat sad.
FINAL note. Who decided growing up was necessary? I mean, really. Rent is due next week, I have to make sure I eat on my own? What is this nonsense? And I have bubbles that have not been touched in way too long. Just saying.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
callin me sugar.
seems like I should work on keeping this updated more often. life has gotten kinda freaking crazy though. you know? the days where I leave at five thirty and don't get back until after ten at night are my favorite. not ONLY because I'm crazy, but I love having so much going on in a day.
I LOVEEE my job. SO much. I can't even fully describe it. It's very low-key, even though there is so much to do. I have only gone one day so far without seeing someone I know. David Squire, my FHE bro from Winter semester last year. Ricky Andreason. Shavonne Fielding. Jenessa's brother. Hilary Casperson. Jeff Dunn. There are more, I just can't recall them now. No kidding though, it's awesome. My coworkers, my boss, they're just fantastic. There are three coworkers who I feel like I know decently by now, and they're all super chill. Two are Polynesian, and one thinks he is because he served his mission in Australia with lots of Tongans. I'm not one to pop his bubble. The Polys are Tashina and Charl, and Nate is the other. They crack me uppp. Yesterday, Nate tried to clean a missionary's nametag (it had sticker on it?) and used the most powerful chemical we have. It's known for taking off TAR for goodness' sake. He sprays it, goes and gets a rag to get it off, and right after he wiped it he just pulled an "Oh. Crap." The poor missionary. It was so funny. The chemical took off ALL the paint. Luckily, he ordered a new one from the front desk. I could NOT stop laughing about it though.
This morning, my boss Merlene was talking to us about something spontaneous (that's pretty much normal for her) when a group of three elders came in with a box. Apparently, she knows one of their aunt's? anyways. She started talking about the aunt and her family with the one elder, and I kid you not, she talked herself into different tangents. She went from the family, to her homemade spaghetti, to homemade applesauce cake compared with normal, to Chile (where the elders were going on their missions) to Mexico and the warfare there, to 8 pairs of garments in the middle of the night. I still am not exactly sure what happened, but it was hilarious. I wish everyone knew her, so they could understand how she talks and get exactly how great it was. Tashina was hiding behind me so she wouldn't offend Merlene she was laughing so hard, Anna almost fell on the floor, and the poor elders were just standing there awkwardly in the doorway. It seriously made my entire day.
Oh, how I love being sore. I did some different things with my training yesterday, trying to improve more. I might be able to run starting in April, and I want to do everything I can to get there. Goodness, though. Walking to work this morning was an adventure. Oh man, I swear work is the only place I come up with stories anymore. That's pretty much the entirety of my social interaction.
Minus Ethan! Does he count? I see him everyday to work on my setting and passing form (which the PT said was completely okay, don't you even worry). He's hilarious, and his photography has gotten super good. I don't know any real technical words for it, but he's dang good. And who knew, but he's way good at EVERYTHING he does. EMT trained, plays piano and violin, was 3rd in his state for breast stroke for swimming, danced hip hop for years, graduated high school as a college sophomore, and picked up photography only a year ago. Crazyness. I'm way proud of him though! He better call me later, or I will kick him. He has a wedding shoot today, or we would have already been setting. :)
Oh, and a few people in my ward, I suppose, too. I see Ben and Austin a bunch, usually. Austin was here for like three hours the other day, chillin and listening to me read microbiology out loud. I love that class! I always learn so much from it. It was hilarious that he was there for so long though. The Beatles were playing in the background, which is almost his favorite band, so that's what I attribute it to. That and he's trying to get me to see scary movies, because he found out that I've never really seen any. We watched Disturbia (kind of a lame movie, not scary at all) one weekend, and we watched The Others with Nicole Kidman last weekend. That one was really well done, I thought, but it wasn't necessarily scary. I slept just fine. There was a fantastic twist at the end that Ben and Austin both had to explain to me for a while after though. Once I got it it was good though!
Other interesting things? Not a lot. I'm tired a lot, because of work and the fact that I can somehow still NOT go to sleep before like midnight-thirty. I need to work on that. I fell asleep for an hour more than I was supposed to today after we did laundry, I was so exhausted. I'm so glad my mama called me! Not only because I luff her super much, and I miss her, but because she has the most brilliant timing in all the world. Whew. LIFESAVER mama.
I remembered something else! I signed my contract for my apartment for the next year! I'm kind of ridiculously excited. Here is the roommate line-up: Me, Meg, Heather, Ally, Kelly, Brittany. I LOVE these gurls. Heather is planning on leaving on a mission next Winter semester, so she won't really be staying the full year (CAN YOU BELIEVE WE'RE THAT OLD?!) but we will have plenty of shenanigans in the meantime. I mean, we will be completely productive.
Also. I think Heather and Meg and I (and potentially more... if more, the better! It will be MUCh cheaper the more people we get) are planning a trip to California this summer! Not sure when, it will depend on school and when I can get work off. But I am already going crazy without sun and sand, from Arizona. Seriously. I might die. I figure after six plus months of going straight on school, PT, and work, a Cali trip is completely acceptable. Plus, after seeing the beach, we might see other important people in Cali! Family? maybe. Still up in the air.
Another thing! Man, it's been a while. I never have this much to say at one time. I've decided to try hip-hop dancing! The low impact stuff, don't stress. I think it's time I try something a little different. I need to shake it up a little bit. Who knows, I might be a straight up natural gang-bangster! :)
Okay, that was it for now. I think.
No, it was.
I LOVEEE my job. SO much. I can't even fully describe it. It's very low-key, even though there is so much to do. I have only gone one day so far without seeing someone I know. David Squire, my FHE bro from Winter semester last year. Ricky Andreason. Shavonne Fielding. Jenessa's brother. Hilary Casperson. Jeff Dunn. There are more, I just can't recall them now. No kidding though, it's awesome. My coworkers, my boss, they're just fantastic. There are three coworkers who I feel like I know decently by now, and they're all super chill. Two are Polynesian, and one thinks he is because he served his mission in Australia with lots of Tongans. I'm not one to pop his bubble. The Polys are Tashina and Charl, and Nate is the other. They crack me uppp. Yesterday, Nate tried to clean a missionary's nametag (it had sticker on it?) and used the most powerful chemical we have. It's known for taking off TAR for goodness' sake. He sprays it, goes and gets a rag to get it off, and right after he wiped it he just pulled an "Oh. Crap." The poor missionary. It was so funny. The chemical took off ALL the paint. Luckily, he ordered a new one from the front desk. I could NOT stop laughing about it though.
This morning, my boss Merlene was talking to us about something spontaneous (that's pretty much normal for her) when a group of three elders came in with a box. Apparently, she knows one of their aunt's? anyways. She started talking about the aunt and her family with the one elder, and I kid you not, she talked herself into different tangents. She went from the family, to her homemade spaghetti, to homemade applesauce cake compared with normal, to Chile (where the elders were going on their missions) to Mexico and the warfare there, to 8 pairs of garments in the middle of the night. I still am not exactly sure what happened, but it was hilarious. I wish everyone knew her, so they could understand how she talks and get exactly how great it was. Tashina was hiding behind me so she wouldn't offend Merlene she was laughing so hard, Anna almost fell on the floor, and the poor elders were just standing there awkwardly in the doorway. It seriously made my entire day.
Oh, how I love being sore. I did some different things with my training yesterday, trying to improve more. I might be able to run starting in April, and I want to do everything I can to get there. Goodness, though. Walking to work this morning was an adventure. Oh man, I swear work is the only place I come up with stories anymore. That's pretty much the entirety of my social interaction.
Minus Ethan! Does he count? I see him everyday to work on my setting and passing form (which the PT said was completely okay, don't you even worry). He's hilarious, and his photography has gotten super good. I don't know any real technical words for it, but he's dang good. And who knew, but he's way good at EVERYTHING he does. EMT trained, plays piano and violin, was 3rd in his state for breast stroke for swimming, danced hip hop for years, graduated high school as a college sophomore, and picked up photography only a year ago. Crazyness. I'm way proud of him though! He better call me later, or I will kick him. He has a wedding shoot today, or we would have already been setting. :)
Oh, and a few people in my ward, I suppose, too. I see Ben and Austin a bunch, usually. Austin was here for like three hours the other day, chillin and listening to me read microbiology out loud. I love that class! I always learn so much from it. It was hilarious that he was there for so long though. The Beatles were playing in the background, which is almost his favorite band, so that's what I attribute it to. That and he's trying to get me to see scary movies, because he found out that I've never really seen any. We watched Disturbia (kind of a lame movie, not scary at all) one weekend, and we watched The Others with Nicole Kidman last weekend. That one was really well done, I thought, but it wasn't necessarily scary. I slept just fine. There was a fantastic twist at the end that Ben and Austin both had to explain to me for a while after though. Once I got it it was good though!
Other interesting things? Not a lot. I'm tired a lot, because of work and the fact that I can somehow still NOT go to sleep before like midnight-thirty. I need to work on that. I fell asleep for an hour more than I was supposed to today after we did laundry, I was so exhausted. I'm so glad my mama called me! Not only because I luff her super much, and I miss her, but because she has the most brilliant timing in all the world. Whew. LIFESAVER mama.
I remembered something else! I signed my contract for my apartment for the next year! I'm kind of ridiculously excited. Here is the roommate line-up: Me, Meg, Heather, Ally, Kelly, Brittany. I LOVE these gurls. Heather is planning on leaving on a mission next Winter semester, so she won't really be staying the full year (CAN YOU BELIEVE WE'RE THAT OLD?!) but we will have plenty of shenanigans in the meantime. I mean, we will be completely productive.
Also. I think Heather and Meg and I (and potentially more... if more, the better! It will be MUCh cheaper the more people we get) are planning a trip to California this summer! Not sure when, it will depend on school and when I can get work off. But I am already going crazy without sun and sand, from Arizona. Seriously. I might die. I figure after six plus months of going straight on school, PT, and work, a Cali trip is completely acceptable. Plus, after seeing the beach, we might see other important people in Cali! Family? maybe. Still up in the air.
Another thing! Man, it's been a while. I never have this much to say at one time. I've decided to try hip-hop dancing! The low impact stuff, don't stress. I think it's time I try something a little different. I need to shake it up a little bit. Who knows, I might be a straight up natural gang-bangster! :)
Okay, that was it for now. I think.
No, it was.
Monday, December 27, 2010
tenacious.
THere is a massive list of things I do, I can do, and I can't do. It goes forever. Really. My PT gave me very specific things today that I can and can't do, with time frames, for now. If I put them here, maybe I will be more diligent in keeping them.
1. NO squats. Minimum of a year.
2. NO lunges. Minimum of a year.
3. No weights on the shoulders, meaning no shoulders presses and the like. with the exception of lat pulls, to be done on a machine only. Minimum of a year.
4. Continuous training. Wall sits, superman adaptations, quadriped, core strengthening, physio ball work, leg presses, hamstring curls, etc.
5. Most nirtulus machines are okay, but careful attention to hip and core strengthening.
6. Bench press and incline okay, with careful attention to not over do it and strain my back. Must do with knees up, feet on bench instead of floor.
That's just the beginning, but you get the idea.
So while there is a list, a long list of adventurous things that can and can't be undertaken, I know what I'm doing now. I know how to get my hip to stay in place, I know what it feels like when it isn't. This last year has been an adventure, in a way that I'm not sure I could handle again. But God is good, and He has never left my side. He has strengthened me through it all, and He has taught me humility and to care for myself in a new way. I'm super stoked to go back, even with all the things I will not be able to do. Six days. I can do it, I can become better. And you better believe I will, with the help and grace of God.
New year. New me. Healthier, smarter. Stronger.
It's a good idea, if you ask me. :)
1. NO squats. Minimum of a year.
2. NO lunges. Minimum of a year.
3. No weights on the shoulders, meaning no shoulders presses and the like. with the exception of lat pulls, to be done on a machine only. Minimum of a year.
4. Continuous training. Wall sits, superman adaptations, quadriped, core strengthening, physio ball work, leg presses, hamstring curls, etc.
5. Most nirtulus machines are okay, but careful attention to hip and core strengthening.
6. Bench press and incline okay, with careful attention to not over do it and strain my back. Must do with knees up, feet on bench instead of floor.
That's just the beginning, but you get the idea.
So while there is a list, a long list of adventurous things that can and can't be undertaken, I know what I'm doing now. I know how to get my hip to stay in place, I know what it feels like when it isn't. This last year has been an adventure, in a way that I'm not sure I could handle again. But God is good, and He has never left my side. He has strengthened me through it all, and He has taught me humility and to care for myself in a new way. I'm super stoked to go back, even with all the things I will not be able to do. Six days. I can do it, I can become better. And you better believe I will, with the help and grace of God.
New year. New me. Healthier, smarter. Stronger.
It's a good idea, if you ask me. :)
Friday, December 17, 2010
treasure.
"I'm so proud of you, girl! You're going to make it!!"
I don't know if you can fully comprehend the impact those words had on me, this fine Friday morning, but I do. I grinned and finished icing, before walking into the parking lot. I started to cry in the car, the triumph and sweet joy more than I could contain.
I'm going to make it.
I don't know if you can fully comprehend the impact those words had on me, this fine Friday morning, but I do. I grinned and finished icing, before walking into the parking lot. I started to cry in the car, the triumph and sweet joy more than I could contain.
I'm going to make it.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
t-minus.
I'm racing the calendar, these days. T-minus twelve days until Christmas, seventeen days until January, twenty days until the semester starts. So much to do, so much to accomplish. The best thing about it, other than the glorious feeling of being busy and having a schedule, is I am. I'm succeeding, doing work, showing up the doctors, impressing the interns, and proving to everyone, including myself, how determined I can become.
My pain level is way down. A huge accomplishment, but I have still been quite restricted in my activity. I'm asking the PT a lot of questions tomorrow, including the inevitability of me returning in January. There are so many stairs to get up to campus. Each one a challenge. I know I can do it, I just need the chance. And the faith.
Oh, is life good.
In other news (I feel like I never include any of this in here, I need to.):
This is my siblings' last week of school, and their finals are today and tomorrow. Do you realize just how close twelve days is? Christmas is HERE. I love it. We put up our Christmas lights last night, and even if we were the last ones on our street to do so, they look fabulousss. Be jealous.
I've been swimming a bunch lately to improve my strength (and goodness knows I need to be more toned. I miss my P90X body!) in the freezing pool in my community. I swear it is about the temperature of an ice cube. Luke goes with me, with his little floaties, so he can jump in too. He loves the pool, it turns out, even with the ridiculous lack of warmth. He fell in yesterday, scared the poor kid. He couldn't get in again then. Today, tho, he was a studmuffin. He had to call me a pansy today and promise to jump in after me for me to be able to convince myself to jump in. He jumped in twice, even knowing how cold it would be! I've decided I need his bravery in Provo. Do you think my mama will let me bring him with me? (put in a good word. it could happen).
My mama ate the last of the cherry cordial Hershey's kisses today. That's right mom, I tattled.
And to end: Question. Can we plan a party for the weekend we all get back? :)
My pain level is way down. A huge accomplishment, but I have still been quite restricted in my activity. I'm asking the PT a lot of questions tomorrow, including the inevitability of me returning in January. There are so many stairs to get up to campus. Each one a challenge. I know I can do it, I just need the chance. And the faith.
Oh, is life good.
In other news (I feel like I never include any of this in here, I need to.):
This is my siblings' last week of school, and their finals are today and tomorrow. Do you realize just how close twelve days is? Christmas is HERE. I love it. We put up our Christmas lights last night, and even if we were the last ones on our street to do so, they look fabulousss. Be jealous.
I've been swimming a bunch lately to improve my strength (and goodness knows I need to be more toned. I miss my P90X body!) in the freezing pool in my community. I swear it is about the temperature of an ice cube. Luke goes with me, with his little floaties, so he can jump in too. He loves the pool, it turns out, even with the ridiculous lack of warmth. He fell in yesterday, scared the poor kid. He couldn't get in again then. Today, tho, he was a studmuffin. He had to call me a pansy today and promise to jump in after me for me to be able to convince myself to jump in. He jumped in twice, even knowing how cold it would be! I've decided I need his bravery in Provo. Do you think my mama will let me bring him with me? (put in a good word. it could happen).
My mama ate the last of the cherry cordial Hershey's kisses today. That's right mom, I tattled.
And to end: Question. Can we plan a party for the weekend we all get back? :)
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
twenty four.
My vocabulary has proliferated in the last weeks. I blame the illustrious combination of chemistry book studying and a spontaneous Sherlock Holmes addiction.
More doctor today! I feel like that is all I do with my life, right now. This is a transient time of life, for me. My entire goal is to get better so I can move on from this, and never look back. Two months, total, with no thought in my head except that to recover, to heal. To endure the pain, for soon I would be without it. Soon I would be back. Better than before. Soon.
Oddly, that "soon" always seemed just out of reach. Something I wanted with my whole heart, with my whole being, that was just too far away for me to jump to. I can see it, January. That ever elusive month that I dream about. I want to go back to studying like crazy, to working, to serving, to living. I want soon.
It's weird to think that soon is actually, soon.
Twenty four days until January 1st, when I presume I will be leaving (at the latest) for Provo. Twelve days until Meg (I miss you seeester!) returns for Christmas break. Four months of semester, of opportunity, just waiting for me. I must make my triumphant return, and make this semester the beginning of my life. The rest of my life. I never want to return to what I was living with. The pain I was in is not a part of life, it's a problem. I still believe that life does not stop for pain, but my mind has shifted. I will do whatever it takes to fix it and move on, not hide it. I'm going to stop putting the people I love in as much pain I'm in. This is going to be different.
And to prove it, this is how I am going to make it different.
1. I will not settle for pain. It's not okay. Life is meant to be enjoyed, lived to the fullest. I don't need to limit myself, limit my capabilities, any longer.
2. I'm going to bring the sunshine with me to Provo. Perhaps it won't be the literal, warm your face kind of sun. However, I have learned more about myself in the last two months than I ever believed possible. I want to warm the hearts of the people around me, by making them realize their capabilities, their potential. I want to help them realize how incredible they are by loving them for who they are.
3. I am going to prove to myself that I can do it. I am going to make school my priority, my talent. I've struggled with school since high school, because I learn easily, but don't make the effort to perform well. I remember the most insane things from high school. I'm a quick learner when it comes to anything "hands-on". Now, I will be a quick learner in every aspect. Watch out BYU. Here I come.
4. I am going to make sure that I keep God close. It's easy to keep Him close when the times are hard, when you need something. I'm learning that I always need Him with me, and how much I can learn from Him. I want to keep this clean sweet feeling.
And that's it, for now.
But that's everything to me. I need to keep this. To remember it. To work for it.
So I will.
p.s. -- that's my family. on the mOOn. love them.
More doctor today! I feel like that is all I do with my life, right now. This is a transient time of life, for me. My entire goal is to get better so I can move on from this, and never look back. Two months, total, with no thought in my head except that to recover, to heal. To endure the pain, for soon I would be without it. Soon I would be back. Better than before. Soon.
Oddly, that "soon" always seemed just out of reach. Something I wanted with my whole heart, with my whole being, that was just too far away for me to jump to. I can see it, January. That ever elusive month that I dream about. I want to go back to studying like crazy, to working, to serving, to living. I want soon.
It's weird to think that soon is actually, soon.
Twenty four days until January 1st, when I presume I will be leaving (at the latest) for Provo. Twelve days until Meg (I miss you seeester!) returns for Christmas break. Four months of semester, of opportunity, just waiting for me. I must make my triumphant return, and make this semester the beginning of my life. The rest of my life. I never want to return to what I was living with. The pain I was in is not a part of life, it's a problem. I still believe that life does not stop for pain, but my mind has shifted. I will do whatever it takes to fix it and move on, not hide it. I'm going to stop putting the people I love in as much pain I'm in. This is going to be different.
And to prove it, this is how I am going to make it different.
1. I will not settle for pain. It's not okay. Life is meant to be enjoyed, lived to the fullest. I don't need to limit myself, limit my capabilities, any longer.
2. I'm going to bring the sunshine with me to Provo. Perhaps it won't be the literal, warm your face kind of sun. However, I have learned more about myself in the last two months than I ever believed possible. I want to warm the hearts of the people around me, by making them realize their capabilities, their potential. I want to help them realize how incredible they are by loving them for who they are.
3. I am going to prove to myself that I can do it. I am going to make school my priority, my talent. I've struggled with school since high school, because I learn easily, but don't make the effort to perform well. I remember the most insane things from high school. I'm a quick learner when it comes to anything "hands-on". Now, I will be a quick learner in every aspect. Watch out BYU. Here I come.
4. I am going to make sure that I keep God close. It's easy to keep Him close when the times are hard, when you need something. I'm learning that I always need Him with me, and how much I can learn from Him. I want to keep this clean sweet feeling.
And that's it, for now.
But that's everything to me. I need to keep this. To remember it. To work for it.
So I will.
p.s. -- that's my family. on the mOOn. love them.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
teliferous.
Teliferous: bearing missiles. I think this might be one of my new favorite words, to be used most accurately during a vicious nerf war.
Other than that. Life is somewhat the same, here in Arizona. Sometimes it's harder than others, especially nights. The consistent pain that I am so used to, the lower back pain, is shifting. It's different now, and I know it means nothing but progress and good things. Let me tell you, though, it is really difficult to get used to. Two ibuprofen will knock me out at night for about four hours, until I wake up drowsy and drugged from pain. I took five last night. If you get anything from me today that makes no sense, that would be why.
I talked to my PT on Friday, asking the specific questions that most doctors expect but don't enjoy.
Q: Am I going to be able to go back in January to school? I have to go back, I'll do whatever it takes; but is it plausible?
A: I plan on getting you back. I know a few good PTs in Provo, that's where I trained while I was in school. I'll give you their information and everything when it is closer to your departure. As for what you'll be able to do, I'm not sure yet. I hope you don't have to go to PT as often there as you are here, but we'll figure it out as we go.
Q: Am I making any progress?
A: I believe you are. It's going to take a lot of work. The biggest problem we have right now is your general weakness. It's good, because we can condition them to do what we need them to, and to restrengthen them with your SI healing in mind. That was part of the problem before, your muscles would pull the hip into rotation pretty quickly on their own. It's quite easy for me to get it back in place now, because you are so loose. I shouldn't be able to do it three times a week, you see. Your muscles should be holding it in place better. So we have to build those up first, and then we can get you to be doing more normal things.
And that's the update, for now.
Other than that. Life is somewhat the same, here in Arizona. Sometimes it's harder than others, especially nights. The consistent pain that I am so used to, the lower back pain, is shifting. It's different now, and I know it means nothing but progress and good things. Let me tell you, though, it is really difficult to get used to. Two ibuprofen will knock me out at night for about four hours, until I wake up drowsy and drugged from pain. I took five last night. If you get anything from me today that makes no sense, that would be why.
I talked to my PT on Friday, asking the specific questions that most doctors expect but don't enjoy.
Q: Am I going to be able to go back in January to school? I have to go back, I'll do whatever it takes; but is it plausible?
A: I plan on getting you back. I know a few good PTs in Provo, that's where I trained while I was in school. I'll give you their information and everything when it is closer to your departure. As for what you'll be able to do, I'm not sure yet. I hope you don't have to go to PT as often there as you are here, but we'll figure it out as we go.
Q: Am I making any progress?
A: I believe you are. It's going to take a lot of work. The biggest problem we have right now is your general weakness. It's good, because we can condition them to do what we need them to, and to restrengthen them with your SI healing in mind. That was part of the problem before, your muscles would pull the hip into rotation pretty quickly on their own. It's quite easy for me to get it back in place now, because you are so loose. I shouldn't be able to do it three times a week, you see. Your muscles should be holding it in place better. So we have to build those up first, and then we can get you to be doing more normal things.
And that's the update, for now.
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